“It is about finding the person you have encased in a tomb which is your own body”
My body Issues began in high school where I was tormented about being overweight. I was constantly embarrassed and had zero self confidence. It wasn’t until after college when I ballooned up to 265 Lbs that I started to realize my depression and absolute misery started to consume my entire being and over shadowed my personality. I was lethargic, constantly exhausted, and always sick and my favorite past time, other than eating, was sleeping. I had an emotional eating addiction to the point where I could eat an entire gallon of ice cream without even blinking an eye. Junk food was the only thing that gave me instant gratification. But in actuality it was making every aspect of my life worse. My heart was breaking.
One day something unexplainable inside of me told me to go for a walk, which turned into a jog, eventually into a run and grew into a passion. It was like a gravitational pull towards being coming a more active person. I promised myself I wouldn’t stop until I made a change; I was fed up with hating everything about myself.
I’ve cried hysterically in mid workout from being overwhelmed and exhausted. I have cried after a workout from joy and the feeling of accomplishment. Weight loss is about learning to love yourself and becoming the best you can be. The real you, finding the person you have encased in a tomb which is your own body. Learning to ultimately believing in yourself to be the best you can be. Recognizing that the mind can carry beyond capabilities you have no idea you posses. Discovering the boundaries than you can break through, creating the feeling of being alive, and fully encompassing the feeling of living. It is not easy, at times it can be mentally draining, emotionally draining and physically challenging, but then again so is being unhappy.
“What makes a champion is fire. May you find the place where you can use your pain and desires to light that inner fire? Once the fire is blazing NOTHING can stop you! Though walls will stand before you, you can become unstoppable when your soul is on fire. My name is Tara Jean D’Antonio and I have felt the bottom and it is the only way I have learned to appreciate the top.”
“I will work towards reaching my goals even if it takes until the death of me, because if you aren’t trying you are already dead.”
Tara, this is a truly one heck of transformation. You have the guts and now you can help others who will need your support in transforming themselves to be great as well. -SjC